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01 December 2009 @ 02:07 am
A year 7 kid brought me to tears today (remove any benevolent connotations of this) - hot angry tears.
27 October 2009 @ 10:57 pm
guess who's back
i'm back
crystal's back
tell a friend

My new timetable consists of the most insane frees that you would come across. Double free periods on THUB and WEDA mornings is so sweet yet pretty pointless as sleeping in for an extra hour and half, coffee runs or other shit along those lines equals nm/zero 'study'. On the same note, I do not get to leave early! This sucks so much :( Actually I do on Tuesdays (3 periods + no sport is fantastic but we end early already on Tuesdays). It really doesn't suck that much/at all but I'm mourning the loss of my old frees and can't help but feel utter despair at being in maths last period while everyone is gone home or more likely BWD TO EAT. Better luck next year I guess.

FREES ARE GOOD (Y) hands down best thing about being snrs.

Mum made nutella sandwiches for dinner.

love mama.

Starting on some biology notes right now, oh damn! Nerdburger is out :) X
09 October 2009 @ 12:01 am
checking in, checking up.

I haven't been on livejournal since earth became a planet so I think this post deserves more than a meaningless apology. Hence I'll be completely honest by admitting Facebook hasn't been able to satisfy the stalking craves thus warranting a grand return to the blogging community that is LJ. Either that or I'm just bored (more likely the latter but boredom is so passe compared to the creepy serial killer persona I've got going). The holidays arrived and kicked off, unofficially, over a week ago with the INFORMAL/CRUISE/SEMI/WHATEVER YOU WANT TO CALL IT and officially last Friday. The mass of this freedom that is rapidly disappearing before my eyes has been used to stack up the zz's ironically. As per usual CBF (for the lack of a better term) doing shit and interacting with people... yet? I sure know how to party hard out ha.

Coolkids are just out of reach and the moment and I'm getting bored of everything so easily. Nonetheless, I don't wanna be a hermit and live under a rock :(

cue akon - lonely


I'm not that hard to keep happy and I thrive on cheap thrills - no shame

I'll be off to have some adventures and hopefully come back to report

24 May 2009 @ 10:19 pm
Since forever I've been a firm believer in what you don't know can't hurt you. It's true, providing that whatever you or other people are hiding doesn't come out in the open, which in most cases is inevitable. It just took a whole lot of bad experiences to hit me that what you don't know CAN hurt you. I can honestly say I've changed so much and I never want to be the person I was in the past.
12 May 2009 @ 07:16 pm
Finally (this should be in caps but I am way too lazy to hit backspace so I'll substitute with this, yeah I am quite the intelligent one) I'm able to put aside all things associated to school. That is, in terms of studying/work. The overwhelming stress in the previous week has been replaced by wait for it - gut wrenching, mind throttling, heart aching ANXIETY. Now that all the trepidation over exams and assessments is over I'm forced to think about, in addition to how badly I did in those exams, some other things that I really don't want to. I wish I could avoid them forever. Even better - I wis they'd fuck off. Some cheering up would be nice because it feels so me against the world lately. Perhaps some shopping ... although I can't :(. The hellogoodbye and dcfc playlists are on repeat and offer some sort of consolidation. Definitely much appreciated.


The amazing fashion cooperation people (aka GODS and my bank account's worst enemy) seriously NEED to bring Urban Outfitters, A&F and Sephora among others to Australia already...

It's a mad, mad world. People are bitches. That pretty summarises the kind of people I know but to be fair and so don't come across as the biggest narcissist others are lovely(L). At the best times it can be rather amusing. After school on my usual adventure home, there was an elderly Asian man carrying a chair around the train station. It was one of those chairs that you'd usually find in a classroom covered in chewing gum and solicited with graffiti, so it appeared unusual. I was very confused and even more curious as to what purpose it held. When we boarded the train it was typical peak hour cogestion. It was very sardines in a can - unpleasant ... especially when you're right under another person's armpit and they've probably gone without a shower their entire life or never been introduced to an invention known as deodorant. Anyway, the asian chair man he placed it right in the middle of the carriage and sat down. Haha, it's a bit of an anticlimax but GOD, it was embarrassing. It's no wonder why Asians are continuously subjected to insults. Not that it really bothers me that much, in fact it was the highlight of my day. I lol-ed, it was hilarious man.

Mood Stat: contemplativecontemplative
iTunes: Sweet and Low - Augustana
09 May 2009 @ 11:59 am
School is in

So it's 6:26 Saturday night. Haven't posted since last month and there's a bit on my mind .. well, nothing too scintillating but chyeah. By no coincidence, preliminary half yearly exams begin this week and trust me to have only began studying properly last week. True to my bad luck - this morning I woke up with every medically known symptom of a friendly cold. With time running out, I am cramming an entire term's worth of Chemistry, Biology and Maths into this short weekend with the help of insane amounts of coffee and an endless supply of Kleenex. Sounds too familiar. At least I won't be distracted by Facebook (went cold turkey). Five days and counting. It is definitely one of my more successful follow throughs of promises to myself. However, not for ever - I will be back FB buddies.

Also, every Gloria Jeans should be replaced with Starbucks. I thought that was worth a mention.

The above recount of events was obviously a WEEK ago with intentions of continuing however, the thoughts didn't transform into words so I walked away and never came back to it (credit to the laptop battery dying). It is exactly a week later and just thinking about those exams makes my mind, body and soul ill. I can't even go crazy this weekend since I have that economics essay due on Monday. PERFECT

My mind is off with the fairies right now, how am I gonna focus on the titanic task threatening me with it's   OUTLINE OF MARKET FAILURE AND EVALUATION OF GOVT. INTERVENTION. Yes... it's as ugly as it sounds. God, it's been one of those 'I hate the world' weeks for me which is probably the only reason why I'm writing about it. I live in a fantasy world, so keep your reality away from me. I'm a mess.

Yesterday I went to the UO/Birds of a Feather/Honey & Milk Sale . Can't believe I didn't buy anything, sooo sad as I am a slave to shoping. I wasn't really in the mood to shop and didn't even have $$$$$$$$$$$$ cause I managed to spend 60 bucks in two days. Look up Lindsay Lohan's flour bomb vid on youtube soooooo funny. PETA's message has gotten a bit 'lost in translation' for a while now. I would never wear fur, I'm not a fan of the look/style anyway.

Listen to BSB's new tracks - gone RnB and 'shawty' on us all haha

Better get some words up for eco. The earth doesn't move and angels don't sing but that's okay.
iTunes: Stuck With Each Other - Akon
11 April 2009 @ 01:29 pm
Just a quick update...

school is out!

A growing abundance of eggs (of the yummy chocolate kind) has started to appear in my house, and disappearing at a similar rate.. HM! Three guesses for the person responsible (A)

Anywho, besides fattening up on easter eggs these holidays I need to stack up on some serious zzz's and study like a bitch for prelims in the second week of school. Joy! Attempts to study on the first day of the holiday were relatively unsuccessful and continues today except I'm on livejournal right now so :s go me :$

Oh and I cracked photoshop (cs3 extended), after too long a period sans pretty images yeahh.

Argh my life is so fcuked atm, must fix asap.

it's the cold youthCollapse )

04 February 2009 @ 01:54 am
all our friends they're laughing at us, all of those you love you mistrust, help me i'm just not quite myself, look around there's no one else left, i went to the concert and i fought through the crowd, guess i got too excited when i thought you were around, oh he gets left, left, left, left, left, left, left, and i'm sorry you were thinking i would steal your fire, and the heart beats in it's cage
iTunes: Heart in a Cage - The Strokes
02 February 2009 @ 01:23 am

Bring us Juicy Couture!

I want a patchwork teddy, how cute!

Have you had sex with more than 25 partners?
what the fuck no

Do you think the last person you kissed is nice?
the nicest

Have your friends ever randomly stopped by your house?
yes. it's annoying

Who's the last person you had a deep conversation with?
don't know

Did you sleep in past noon today?
that sounds nice

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

How many different colors are you wearing right now?
er a few, not the entire rainbow

If you could have something right now, what would it be?
diet coke

Do you want someone back in your life?
YES always

When is the last time you cried really hard?
not sure

Has a boy/girl put their arm around you the past five days?

How is the weather right now?
insanely hot

Is anything annoying you right now?
pretty much everything

Does anyone call you babe?

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

Whose bed did you sleep in last night?

Is this year the best year of your life?
too soon to say

Are you trying to avoid liking/loving somebody at the moment?

When was the last time you were really confused?

Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

Do you have nice eyes?
i don't think so

What are you doing besides this?
getting sleepy

Do you have any plans for tomorrow?

What's the first thing you did when you woke up?
hit snooze

If your friends warn you about someone, do you listen?

Does it take a lot to make you cry?

Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
sort of

Are you currently frustrated with a boy/girl?

Would you ever get a tattoo?
probably not

Are you keeping a big secret right now?

What made you happy today?
power nap

Would you date someone twenty years older than you?
not at the moment

Are you close with your mother?
no, we get along - sometimes

Did you speak to your father today?
kinda lol

Do you hate the last girl you were talking to?

Have you ever kissed anyone with a name that starts with B or Z?
no :S

Have you ever broken someone's heart?

Could you ever be friends again with someone that broke your heart?
hasn't happened yet

Do you hate anyone?

Do you miss your past?
parts of it

Are you listening to music right now?

Has anyone ever sang to you?

Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point and aren't around much anymore?

Is there any emotion you're trying to avoid right now?

Have you ever skipped school just because you were tired?
all the time

Anything you would change about your life right now?

Can you admit when you're wrong?

iTunes: The Fear - Lily Allen
01 February 2009 @ 11:36 pm
It feels too weird to be back in the country after such a great time overseas. I was welcomed home by the insane heatwaves with preliminary year awaiting. So much has happened between this short period. I loved being part of life on the other side of the world however short the amount of time was. I got to see people I missed way too much but yeah hope it's not too long until the next time. The two days I spent in hospital for hypoglycemia must have been a highlight, this time unintentionally triggered. School officially started last week and I still can't shake this feeling of anxiety and similarily apprehensive emotions. It doesn't help that I have a shit classes/timetable and I have no idea what I'm going to do about it - undoubtedly make some rash and nonchalant changes at the last minute. I've already changed my mind about an estimated 5 hundred times (far from being a exaggeration you should know). The new kids were exactly what I expected, which is the problem ugh! To top off the crap list there's nothing to look forward to and there's far too many regrets on my mind at the moment. This time I think I really made a huge mistake and trusted all the wrong people - ok maybe not so dramatic but still hmm. Oh well, I can only hope for the many pleasant and unpleasant life holds. But god damn. Every time something good happens, it's taken away.

QVB's new addition: The Cupcake Bakery.

Most people already know I have a ridiculous sweet tooth and a superior appreciation for all things cupcakes hehe, especially the ones that look too good to eat. I'm yet to try from here but they look just as divine as cupcakes from The Cupcake Room (Leicharddt) and Cupcakes on Pitt :) Also, they have these unbelievable MAXI CUPCAKES and almost looks like it's worth the $55 price. Anywho I have to try and stop myself from drooling on the keyboard so I'll update when I do get the chance to grab one of these treats :P

New, gorgeous and mine. 24"
Mood Stat: contemplativecontemplative
iTunes: Signs - Bloc Party
22 January 2009 @ 01:26 am
hi fag
04 March 2008 @ 09:26 pm
Forgive me for neglecting livejournal! Please ...

Its not entirely my fault I have zero time, my internet is a bitch and I'm over it all [LJ, keeping a diary?].


Today only happens once a year and today ...


Take that bitches (:

I get special privileges to be very materialistic today! Yay4Me.
Argh fuck, that's all my brain is letting me express. Let me assure you that my head is far from care-free.
I'm quite loving my life atm.
New school + new friends + old friends = Ace +

OOoh and download the Macbook Air ad. song it's (Y). It defines my life atm. I'm a new soul in a new world making every possible mistake (: (: (: LATERS!!!
Mood Stat: happyhappy
28 December 2007 @ 11:15 pm
Eek. It's a couple of hours (specifically 3 and a half) past midnight ... Friday morning. Still yet to adjust to this new time zone and everything. It's 10PM in Sydney after all.

Sooo. I'd name all the lovely places I was privileged to visit today ... (Fillmore Street XD among the shopping wonderlands) but I don't wanna sound like a total tourist, this blog shouldn't really be about me GLOATING (hint, hint).

HMM. I reckon when I get back to Sydney I dye my 14 year old virgin hair ... but maybe not.
Cons defeat Pros.
Too bad :(

I'm tired. Gnight/Gmorning, I dunno.

This kid OWNS. Jap kids are tres cute (: want one? LOL, kidding. Anyway he's pretty awesome for 5 years old!
27 December 2007 @ 09:03 pm
Ladida, Christmas has come and gone ...

Just like 2007. What a big, slow, eventful one it has been ... (I'll come back to this, lolz)

The fat man with the albino beard and red suit + raindeer, aka SANTA was very generous this year XD


14 hours and I've landed in San Francisco of the US of A at the sleepy hour of 12AM! I aint looking too crash hot at the moment. This goes without seeing the picture I 'considered' posting showing a pair of bloodshot eyes and grossly dark eyebags underneath (even though I slept the WHOLE flight). BUT anyway we're staying at relative's hugeee, expensive home in PACIFIC HEIGHTS! We're going shopping in Fillmore Street tomorrow, definitely something to look forward to. Gosh, I'm still WIDE awake with a spinning headache + a shiver - it's 1:30AM (yeah I got on the net as soon as possible, hehe) and 43 degrees fahrenheit (No one here will tell me what that is in celcius ... I'm guessing COLD). Guess I'm still not adjusted to Californian time zone.

For New Year's, yours truly will be in Vegas, which is going to be pretty goddamn sexy even though I have to wait an extra 19 hours for 08 now >__<! HAPPY NEW YEAR'S, have a good one!

So nows a good time as any to recap the year I suppose.
I kindof don't even wanna remember the year but it's been good and bad for different reasons.

1; New friends. YUP
Best friends, breakups, bitchfests, Friend of Friends
2; School. NUP x two
Getting more stupid by the minute.
3; Family. NUP x one hundred
Unspoken, spoken. What's the difference?
4; ME. Sighhh, no comment =/

None of the above matters anymore because I've escaped hell + misery, 'over the seas' for the week actually :D

Oh wow, I'm drifting ZZzz's xP 2AM O__O

I'll be back my Sydney loves. I'll call when I'm home ;)
I have plans for the following weeks that include summer-loving, chilling, partying & having FUN. xoxo.
07 December 2007 @ 10:05 pm
Monday - Geography Video
Wednesday - English Yearly
Thursday - Commerce Yearly #1 + Maths Multiple Choice Yearly #1
Friday - Maths Yearly #2 + Commerce Yearly #2

Wednesday - Media Matters Yearly
Thursday - Science Yearly + History Yearly
Friday - Science Assignment Due

Saturday - 6th Grade Piano AMEB EXAM
Science Homework Booklet

Stressing about piano.
BUT all will be good after tomozza!
Hanging out with cool kids afterwards too ;)
04 December 2007 @ 07:56 pm
Don't you hate it when people force you to post shit like this ...

I defend you no matter what.
I put you before everything else.


I see your smile
I know your mind
No words need be said
I understand.

Focused on each other
We listen and we care
Laughter ripples like water
Together, we are.

Others are here, yes,
And we value them, yes,
But a special bond remains,
A line between us two.

Each friendship is special
Each is unique
And so is ours
We know.

And then time begins to roll
and rear it’s ugly head
Change begins
Now a little less than before.

Slowly, surely,
Not knowing why
Faster, stronger, without care
Our world shifts and shimmers and splits.

Shattered shards cascade down
Spurred by angry, lashing words
Contorted faces, stone deaf ears
Outside the whirlwind,
We die inside.

The scars run deep
Jagged clefts in our souls
We have suceeded in hurting
And hurt ourselves.

So you move on
And I remain
We keep on living
Turn our faces apart.

Now I glance across
At you from outside
Shaded eyes dry with tears
New friends, new life.

Laughter, smiling (clenched teeth)
The flippant toss of the head
The enclosure surrounds you
I cannot come near.

From behind my glass window
I know more than those within
I see the hurt in your eyes
I know the pain in your smile
I have been there before - I love you
Why do you pretend?

I hate to see your pain
And I cry inside
Tears deep within my soul
I cannot help you anymore.

What we had once
We can never have again.

The scars run deep,
But I still care.

You were my friend.

I don't need this shit right now.
I want my friend BACK.
Monday - Geography Video
Wednesday - English Yearly
Thursday - Commerce Yearly #1 + Maths Multiple Choice Yearly #1
Friday - Maths Yearly #2 + Commerce Yearly #2

Wednesday - Media Matters Yearly
Thursday - Science Yearly + History Yearly
Friday - Science Assignment Due
Saturday - 6th Grade Piano AMEB EXAM
Science Homework Booklet

Chilling like a Villain. For now (weekend).
TMR: CT with the cool cat kids

You know you love black humour.
Mood Stat: satisfiedsatisfied
iTunes: "No One" - Alicia Keys
01 December 2007 @ 06:31 pm
I am fixed to beststuff.com, this is quite sad. I'm discovering more about myself than I knew - haha.

Apart from this, I spent the day debating saracasm with Leigham. I use sarcasm every day of my life, it is quite amusing when you come across people who do not get sarcasm at all.

I can be completely sarcastic with a straight face … it confuses people so much. They don’t expect it from me. I can keep it up for hours before people know I’m completely un-serious. I should have my own TV show. Nah, I would just bore you to sleep.

The conclusion: the lowest form of humor but the highest form of wit. Ahh sarcasm. When done properly can be a beautiful thing.
Mood Stat: curiouscurious
iTunes: "1, 2, 3, 4" - Feist
23 November 2007 @ 09:13 pm
It's highly likely that I will forget these dates, only because there are way too many of them and I really need to store these somewhere.

Monday - Geography Video
Wednesday - English Multiple Choice Yearly
Thursday - English (Macbeth) + Commerce Yearly (50% weighting) + Maths Multiple Choice Yearly
Friday - Maths Yearly (Part 2)
Wednesday - Science Yearly + Media Matters Final
Saturday - 6th Grade Piano AMEB EXAM
Science Assignment
Science Homework Booklet

Pretty sure there are more to come ...
Thus the reason for the shitty mood
15 November 2007 @ 09:22 pm
Today, I blocked yet another contact on MSN. Maybe it's because I'm have the mindset of a nine year old or it's just them who are annoying. At the moment I'm not sure. Don't think I will ever be sure.

THURSDAY - Back to school after our five and half days long weekend (friday = excursion, S&S, MON-WED = camp) and the day felt more like Friday than Thursday. Of course, keeping this in mind, I am deeply unfavouring of this fact.

I'm so whatever, blah right now. Ha, it doesn't even make sense right? Yeah ... not even to me.
12 November 2007 @ 08:41 pm
First day of not actually attending 3 days of classes? Yeah. Madfun.
11 November 2007 @ 09:47 pm
It's been long since I've been in a mood to "appreciate"/update this journal. So far, I'm up to the second sentence. I've been alright, could be better ... and still, having it better off than most people.
School has been a misery in my life and anticipating the end of year 9.

Today, I stayed home ... subdued to my daily rituals of sleeping, eating, reading, internet & entertainment. I ended up amusing myself watching American Beauty, which ironically is a BEAUTIFUL movie.

Tomorrow is Monday, apparently, Year 9 camp. Classes will be a absolute bludge, marvelous, however I will not be seen around school. Plans already made.

So tired. Fuck, I'm sleeping in.

Finally, the YAA State Awards Dinner (Friday night) has marked the official end of the program, for which I'm glad!
So here's the Friday debrief:
This night was what helped us get through the last couple of weeks of school.
$128 dress + $20 hair expenses have been made up by the fact that the night was a lot of fun. The food wasn't fantastic but edible and classy enough also venue (Bayview Boulevard @ the X) was crap.
Everyone made such a big deal of it - I'm not sure, in retrospect, it was quite as close to amazing as expected (it never is).
Now, there's not much to look forward to, but that's life as I know it.
10 November 2007 @ 01:14 pm

Originally uploaded by ♥vainvedette
Last night's YAA state awards! R-L: Julian, Yvette, Myself, Lindsey, Rachel, Enny & Ada.
03 November 2007 @ 01:03 am
AH, stress is free-for-all high schoolers. In fact, I feel so 'down' about school, I should be a Prozac kid

FACEBOOK is my new best friend. ADD away!
25 October 2007 @ 09:05 pm
I just blew $128 on a dress - for the YAA awards night.
I'm just not bothered to upload a pic at this point.

So, this afternoon was spent shopping as previously suggested (: and moving my bed, desk and whatever junk is also in my room. It's supposed to help me sleep better, since my mum has taken away my sleeping pills :)

Just because I don't sleep, doesn't mean I don't enjoy it!

Basically I've only just recently learnt how important 9 hours of sleep is. The affect on my skin, eyes, body and general mood is gross ...

Once my iPod charges I'll do some hardcore nerding until 10. So proud of myself
Mood Stat: devious
HAHA @ blog title.
Some asshole thought it was funny, but I'm pretty sure everyone has heard that one a couple hundreds of times.

This must be the most friggin retarded entry ever. I know what it’s like to live in a fantasy; and wish and hope to be saved, but not now. I did that growing up. Then I became pessimistic and stopped hoping and wishing at all.

Now I'm going to ... do what I do best - guess.

People are starting to notice my dislike of one friend, I'm so ashamed. I don't even know why I don't like her and I'm sure as hell not jealous of the girl. Everything is ticking me off, I'm so fucking over it!

I've never been a good friend.
Mood Stat: crankycranky
iTunes: "Million Faces" - Paulo Nutini
22 October 2007 @ 08:40 pm
I don't know what your problem is, but I'll bet it's hard to pronounce.
Mood Stat: bitchybitchy
22 October 2007 @ 07:35 pm
BABY-SITTERS CLUB for the win?  I'm not that desperate for cash but I agreed to babysit for 2 hours because I didn't want to say no. Like I have anything better to day anyway hah. Here's the story of my night. By 7 I had probably taken a layer of enamel off my teeth from grinding my jaw whenever I was forced by my little eccentric friend to ... let's not go there ... haha, especially not for your entertainment.
In retrospect ... baby-sitting perfect (slight euphemism) Kirrily is similar to "making friends with the devil" - somewhat more satisfying, I reckon. So yeah, that's the last time I'm watching any five year (let's make it any thing under the age of 12 - their maturity age of course) old brat. No matter how much money is involved (I take this all back if the rate is double digits)!

I actually remember EARTH HOUR. As to whether my lights were on/off ... I didn't notice the time until it was time to put them back on.
Anyway, my relatives in San Francisco were telling me about their very own "Lights Out San Francisco" and how our friends at Google 'put out their homepage' for Bay Area users. Cool much? See for yourself

> http://www.google.com/lightsoutsf/
> http://www.blackle.com/

Things are interesting. School is keeping me busy, in an amusing way - can't really care to go into anymore detail. Also, in general I'm just so over being a good friend.

It turns out I'm not so great with relationships.

It also turns out one day you can have an amazing friendship with a person and the next, it seems it was only ever fabricated all in the name of 'stereotypical friendship'. It feels that I'm the only person that I know who has real issues with always judging, especially on small things. As in why is every second person a total loser ... Indefinitely people notice. Yes well, it would suck if you're friend cannot get alongIt sucks! I'm just such a critical person and a bad friends :(

What do you call a person who is 'casually' your friend and 'occasionally' your enemy?
Ultimately, things will never work out the way I want them to. I'd like to think that I will get my way ... but I won't kid myself.

I'm looking forward to taking complete control of my life. 4 years & hopefully no regrets (: but I still think you're a bitch and this makes me feel like a fucking criminal!!!

Tomorrow I have a dentist apt. after school, better not freakin' forget. Knowing my memory I will.
Mood Stat: devious
iTunes: "Nineteen" - Tegan and Sara
18 October 2007 @ 08:43 pm
I'm sure everyone is aware how crap free TV in Sydney is. So no need to pay out TV - that requires time, mostly cbf though. Wednesday nights at the moment are pretty good - House, Chasers & SHH. The new season of House (he so kicks butt) is as good as the previous ones but it's not the same without Cameron, Chase & Foreman. Hugh Laurie, is love!

I wish the year was over, it's fucking tragic. Lately I haven't been entirely feeling myself...
Mood Stat: blahblah
17 October 2007 @ 09:40 pm
So - just a update on the status of this livejournal. Old layout is gone for good. Temporary layout - also gone for good (this one was for the better). Quite liking the current one (:

I deleted 60+ entries from this journal. They were either too incriminating or I was just (dammit) paranoid. I know this is now friends-only but I just don't want to lock posts just yet.

I'm still confused as why I keep this journal. I know it help with all the bullshit that happens. Seriously.

Then there's school.

Pot Ya Plant liquidates on Friday and we have to submit our application for awards. Mum let me have both amounts in the reimbursement cheques (around $100). In its final weeks, I now consider myself quite the marketing guru. To be honest though, I'm really stressed out and deprived of sleep.

When it comes to university and post-high school ... I stop thinking. Call it apathy, call fear, I'm not entirely sure of my self. Finals are coming up this term, fucking -!

SS/08 has come and gone. Paris Wrap Ups were more than amazing.

Interesting, exciting - I am not.
Home?: Yep
Mood Stat: aggravatedaggravated
10 October 2001 @ 09:01 pm

"People don’t keep journals for themselves. They keep them for other people, like a secret they don’t want to tell but they want everyone to know. The only safe place for your thoughts is your memory, which people can’t take and read when you’re not looking – at least not yet."
 - Marilyn Manson, "The Long Hard Road Out of Hell"

ADD. I don't bite! I've probably seen you around but have been too shy to add you. I'm cool

I don't add inactive journals.
Home?: Yes
Mood Stat: cheerfulcheerful
iTunes: "Guns of Brixton" - Nouvelle Vague